May You Grow

I was thinking that if ~1 in 50 people are psychopaths does that mean we are evolving to be less emotional? Are we the proto emotionless aliens who invade Earth in sci-fi novels? Or are we evolving to be more emotional? Or am I reading too much into this? PS this was one of those thoughts I had as I was falling asleep and sounded way more profound at the time than it does now.

May Life Warp Goals

• Sleep Well, Sleep Enough. This one is stolen from blithelybonny and desperately needed. While I was in Baltimore, I think I got the best sleep I've had in 5 years. I went to sleep around 11:45 and woke up without an alarm at 7:15. This is outstanding. I felt so refreshed all day while I was away. Even my earache and the tension in my neck and shoulders went away. Then I came home and I feel just as crummy as before. I don't really know what the factors are. I think the cats are one (noise, movement, fur) and I think my basement apartment is another (no morning light in my bedroom, unlike the hotel, where it was bright and sunny). But it did tell me one thing: 7.5 hours is my ~ideal sleep~ time. Now I just have to work on sleeping well at home.


• Fiction, goddamnit. I had a lot on my plate last month, and as life is life, this month will not be so different. I tried to knock the ~easy~ tasks out of the way first, which left most of my writing to the beginning and ending of April, so I didn't have time to finish what I started. I did at least use the time mentally productively, in that I've thought about my writing a lot in the last month. I know what I want to focus on right now, and that helps. This month, I want to focus on my Draco/Hermione and my NewOrleansOrigific.

HCGS, DC, & Long-Distance > Short-Distance
Nathan is graduating with his M.S. in Print Media on May 23. He defends his thesis on May 15. I am so proud of him for getting his shit done. On top of that, he's wrangled a ~trial period~ at that start-up 3D printer outside of DC for the month of May--which means he has to be in DC Mon-Wed and in Rochester on Thursday to T.A. his advisor's class lab. It's going to be a busy month for him, but it's only a month. And since he doesn't have to T.A. next Thursday (see below), he's staying through, and won't have to travel back next Wednesday night. They're only paying him intern wages to do this, which sucks, and if they keep him on, the position tops out at $56,000, which also sucks, but as I told him, any job is better than no job, and he still has applications in with the Fed/Bureau of Printing and Engraving.

He also has an interview next Thursday with another printer in the District. Hopefully that would pay more. Hopefully he will have two great offers to choose from.

So on one hand, I'm really pleased that my long distance relationship is coming to a close. On the other, I'm getting pre-annoyed that I'm going to have to share my living space for most of May.

**Make room to grow**
I also want to take this opportunity to ~spring clean~ my relationships. I know that I've been a not-great LJ friend in the past year, and I would like to change that, but a 150 person friendslist (and a lot of side projects) makes that difficult and I've been, frankly, overwhelmed by a lot of posts on my feed - some from people I interact with regularly, and some from those I only spoke to once, at friending - and plenty in between. I want to focus on the relationships that matter, with the people who genuinely want to be my friend and have me in their life, in whatever way LJ allows for it.

So I would like to take this opportunity to offer any of you who've been "holding on" because it would be "weird" to defriend me, the opportunity to defriend with no hard feelings. I would love a note to say goodbye (and we can connect in other places like Facebook or Instagram or Goodreads if you still want to stay in touch but are tired of my entries) but it's not necessary. You can make a quiet exit if you like.

I plan to stay in fandom and I plan to continue posting about my life in general, if that helps you decide.

* I don't have immediate plans to do a friends-cut myself, mostly because I don't have the time to go through it right now, but if in the future I do so, you can also feel free to let me know here or privately if you'd really like to stay in that event. No need to comment to stay though; I have no intention of ever cutting people I interact with.